New chapter

Guess no one can runaway from "changes"
It comes every now and then
To spice up your life
& to kick the comfort zone of yours off

New space , place , environment , experience

As i said , 2017 bring it on!

As far as i would like to runaway from it

It seems like to no avail.

So why not take it up instead?

I may have loadsa complaints before

But its pretty useless i guess

No one could help me if i dont not help myself

So in the end , i decided to put a fullstop

Maybe be for the better or worst?

Whateva come what may!

Till then i shall think for myself only

Hold on and watch me dance through the rain!

Grey Skies

阴天的心情只有一个
就是爱睡啦！
😆
Snuggling under the blankie on the sofa
With the tv on and with someone
That would be the ideal thing to do now

*in my wildest dream*

Merry May?

Scribbling from a mini hp screen is so much harder than typing it out on a computer
But after working hours ,
Its time to get off that lappie!

One more month till the middle of the year!

I dont knw why but i couldnt wait. 

May would be busily dull

At least there will be some live and fun in June! 

Shall paint this month with colourful rainbows rite?

This life is yours to hold and create memories.

☺️

Oh oh , another 3 kilos down for me!

Yikess! What did i do? 

You fats , i shall shake you off all soon! 

Too much of hiking? Or too stressed up? 

Either or i guess

Too much things on my mind

Too slow to type it all at once

Some are too private to be written down here

I shall keep it up in the brain 

Sneeze too much today

Flu found its way to me

Great huh?! 

Don't miss me too much kay

I would like to know who's the culprit actually.

人类 ，我真的搞不懂你

各种各样的态度
真的令我烦死

天天对着不同的人

天天面对不同的态度

人啊！你可不可以别这样？

多么的希望你们都有commom sense

什么是limit

什么是sensitive

什么是一点都不好笑

什么是说够了

什么是不应该说出口

我真的搞不懂你的脑

你们到底有没有成长？

你们到底有没有说话经过大脑？

老，年轻都是一样

等到我脸变色，你们才醒

到时候会太迟了。

你们就要面对我的丑脸了！

Can't keep my hands to myself

Me back ; me back
Proud of my lousy inkgerish!
I know , its lame

Can't help it at times

At times i wish i have the power to read minds

The minds of others ; it'll def be interesting

Intuition is a lady's gift

However there are doubts bout it at times

As it is not proven to be accurately correct

Advices from whom-so-ever

Doesn't really work well on this stubborn head

As i rather judge from my eyes than others 

So yeah , i gotta admit ; 

A person can condemn another infront of me all they want

But end of the day ,

It doesn't really affect me 

Perhaps i'll just treat it as its a rap song

Call me a snob or 

Tell me "You've got served!"

I'll say oh well , at least i could get up and walk myself

Or make judgement on my own

Trust is very precious gift i would offer

Its just so rare that i could just give it to anyone

Closeness couldn't fairly trade it from me

Truthfuly , i wouldn't show my all

I know this is harsh ; not even close friends

Cz i'll be too vulnerable

Being an optimist is what i would want for the rest of my life

Pessimist is just too depressing

Cut the crap and let yourself live for once!

Bad decisions made are purely lessons in life

Dig a hole ; bury it deep and start again. 

Till then , Toodles! 

Monkey March

the ever perfect monday
sitting by a cafe at the busiest bank street
pening down some thoughts

"Give your all to me and i give my all to you"

Playing in the background

3rd month in the new year

Last 2 months were pretty hectic ever since last year's dec

Work is pilling ; syallabus for studies is updated

How do i break myself in half?

I couldn't but i've been managing such a life

You gotta keep moving to keep holding it in

Life ain't a bed of roses

Only to some i guess

But well , its been a great one!

Pretty much thankful

Plans for this year is not up yet

Was too busy to even think of any trips

Well i guess , being single for the past year

I've gain alot in knowing myself more

To love and accept my own flaws

And prolly change it for the better

Done things i wouldnt even thought of

Get to know strangers i havent meet before

I've got asked

Why i dint wana find another half yet?

The best answer i could give is

I'm still waiting ; waiting for the deserve one

I've been pretty much in the fast lane all these years

Now i would just wana take a step back and wait

Not in the days where pleasing someone was my job

Not in the days where calming the roaring sea was my job

Looking back on that mini me , 

I know i deserve much more than that

Being alone really izint that bad either

It makes you think of what you actually want

What is actually made you , you! 

Just be awesome

And an awesomeness will definitely get to you! 

He is the Reason for this Season

Last month of the year...
December the happiest month of the year...
Its also the busiest month of the year for me

Here i am...

After 9 months of M.I.A from this blog world of mine

Too much things to write ,

At times its seriously hard to put it down in words.

Since its the last month of the year

Perhaps it shall be my last post of the year 2015

Lets walk with me down the path of memories , aite?

So much ups and downs this particular year

I've grown so much and learned so much of myself

The limits that i could reach

The fears that i could face 

The paranoia times that i could hold a calm attitude

Created a past that i wouldn't want to walk through again

A past that became a lesson to my present and future

A past that i could put it behind me against all odds

A past that reminds me of who i was

And never to be that again

Spread my wings and went against the wind

Solo trip was the only factor i was looking forward in 2015

I managed to go through it and had fun

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass

But to learn how to dance in the rain"

Never knew i was that bold enough

Never knew i was alert enough

Never knew i was independent enough

Never knew i would have so much fun on solo 

I think i would do it again in the future

But i would still wish to travel the world with another half

Nothing is better than to see the world together

Two is better than One

A friend told me

That this is the first time he has ever seen me single for a while

True enough , im the kind to always go in a pair

I find myself to be happier

I find myself to be free from frustrations

I find myself to find the real me

I find myself to have time on my own

I shall embrace it till the other half finds his way to me

Till then Just Live Life! 

A quote says

"You're a Survivor cuz you've live 100% through your bad days 

As you're still alive today"

Be still and know that he is always right there to guide you through

Have a Jolly Merry Christmas

And a Happy New Year 2016

Whats done is done ,

Whats over is over ,

Whats coming is yet to be reveal

So Smile , the world is yet to end. 

Goat year

It is 2015!

*Meeeehhhh~
Meeehhh~*

March , 3rd month of the year.

What have i done . been . going to do for the year?

Eat . Sleep . Rave . Repeat

=p

Should i say , Life's been pretty dull?

or uninteresting?

MmmMmm..

Well , this is the working life.

Work . Eat . Sleep . Drama . Sleep

Heh!

One crazy thing i've done for the New Year is 

 dye my hair GREEN.

Yerrrp Hijau.

its for the sake of Once In a Lifetime thing.

Next prolly Blue?

i admit i have a sense of dry sarcasm

cuz no one really gets my cold joke

but i'll be the only one laughing out loud

Got a date & booked my tickets for the next huge thing in life!

*sneaky*

i'm not throwing any details.

So , hold on , hang in there till i blurt it out.

Words from others do put me off at times 

but i held in there.

Am in a waiting game for a call/confirmation 

i do so hope for a chance in life to shine

Total of 3 papers down , 

2 more to go!

Look on the brighter side my dear , only TWO.

i hope i could live to the day i graduate from books.

xD

GERD still torture me daily.

On calm days , i drink on gaviscon.

On bad days , i don't get any sleep at night.

it all depends on the food i take , the consistency and the amount

It'll be better to punch a hole at my tummy ,

put a pipe so i could turn it on to drain out the asid

& off it once done.

I get sleepy easily

I could yawn whole freaking day with tears

Why..why?!

Friends call me piggy , well it suits me well

Work , pretty not-busy for now

Seeing newcomers who are not adapting to the new environment makes me wonder

Perhaps i'm used to adapt to new surroundings pretty quickly

Should get myself to update this quaterly

as reading back to my old post brings me back to the moment that i wrote it.

the old me were kinda pessimist , 

been trying to change that since i realize it.

Still working on it

=)

 

 

Thoughts...

Things just flows into my mind
while i'm watching dramas.
HEH! =)
Typical me.....

I'm sure every perfect humans too have flaws

whether is it hidden or not

obvious or not

Well , you just gotta spend more time with the person

to find out!!

Truthfully , whether couples or best friends

There is a time when you dislikes each others behavior

But stop & think , that person doesn't grow up with you

of course he/she doesn't know whether you dislike it or not?

Yes , sure , you could tell them off

but it takes time to feel comfortable with a person from another mother

Actually dramas could be your very most useful mirror in life

you see things from the dramas are actually the same as reality!

From relationships to family probs , 

Who doesn't have any of it?!

Your life might be too comfy , but wait for the timer to go off

the BOM will actually blast!

Perhaps , it might hurt much more if its too perfect.

Life izin't a bed of Rose

So TRUE yet so unbelievable!

Some born with a Silver spoon , some had to go through life's hardship

Some easily met THE ONE , some had to go through multiple heart breaks

Izin't it unfair?

BUT....think.

They may get things their way in life , however there are things they don't

Some might get all broken up inside but they have awesome bunch of people around them

So , shall we try to look at the bright side , Aye?

It's never easy , trying.

But keep going , even rubber bands get loose if you've stretch it for too long.

=D

& another thing i've learned , 

Is to cherish the moment.

Never look back , never regret , never repeat the same mistakes again.

Life's too short to repeat mistakes! Use it to learn new lessons!

我会牢牢地记住

我所曾经受过的伤痛

悲伤；经验；就是生活上的成长。

以前的我 ，不知笨到那个地步

也不知道我怎么承受那七年。

想想回去，我都会对自己自悲

见天的戏剧，让我觉得我当时应该反醒了 

“你的幸福不会痛苦吗？”

会，当然会！

可是我却当时没感觉到。

你曾经说过，我不像个女孩

因为我从来不喜欢打扮。

你说我没女人味

因为我不喜欢Pedi&Manicure

你说过，你觉得原来你是跟一个男孩交往

你说过很多令人伤心慈心的话

可是当时我还真心的爱你。

谢谢您所伤我的一切

这让我跟坚强，跟爱自己

永远不会在让自己为你这些男人陷害

女人不是您家里养的狗

说来就来，说去就去！

也更加不是您的游戏

说停就停，说走就走！

您所给的伤，还不能够消灭

毕竟你当我是狗都不如。

我怎么能忘记？

对，我还可以当个朋友来对待

可是我所经过的痛苦自我所知。